[ He can't look at Dune or he might break down. He wants so much to change his mind, to take his hand and say that it doesn't matter that he doesn't deserve Dune, that he wants him anyway. That he loves him, that he wants to treasure every second that he has by Dune's side and that he wants to kiss him right this very second and—
And it's not that all of that isn't true, but his self-loathing is a punishment he imposes on himself. He doesn't have the courage to make a move, to find out what the taste of Dune's mouth would be. To say "I love you" like it's a prayer, like Dune is a prayer.
In the end, he doesn't say anything at all, staring at the ground and wishing in this moment that the man known as Aragaki Shinjiro, sometimes called Sable, did not exist at all. ]
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And it's not that all of that isn't true, but his self-loathing is a punishment he imposes on himself. He doesn't have the courage to make a move, to find out what the taste of Dune's mouth would be. To say "I love you" like it's a prayer, like Dune is a prayer.
In the end, he doesn't say anything at all, staring at the ground and wishing in this moment that the man known as Aragaki Shinjiro, sometimes called Sable, did not exist at all. ]