Yeah - I - uhm. [Ugh this was so embarrassing. He put his head down, as he put a fairly good portion of noodles, fried pork paste bits and powdered eggs into his bowl. Then he dished out some for Victor, and taking his hand, led him over to the table. He handed over the chopsticks - thank goodness they had those...

And played with his food a little, as he confessed.] I didn't act very, uhm, bravely when I got here. I sort of - had a panic attack. That lasted. A few days.